2012: The New Year
So with 3 days until 2012 commences (and our predicted "last year on Earth") I figured I'd blog about what 2011 was like for me....
I started off 2011 with the goal for it to be a ton better than 2010 was for me. I dunno whether to say it felt short of expectations or if it didn't start when I wanted it to, but it surely did go a bit better than even I expected. It took a while for things to start to fall into place and sink in, but I can definitely say that things are a hell of a lot better now than they were at this same point in 2010.
I'm so much more comfortable with things. For the longest time I was so focused on certain things that I never took the time to appreciate the things around me. The people that are around me, the things in life that are around me, and overall, just the general aura of life itself. I had begun to forget about a lot of things, but in the last few months I've started to remember them again. And I've slowly begun to, finally, relax.
For one, the people I've surrounded myself with are absolutely amazing. The conversations I'm having now, I couldn't have had a year ago... hell, I couldn't have had them 6 months ago. It's like around every corner now there's someone who I can turn to and trust, talk to -- and listen to -- about anything, and just generally enjoy. I find myself saying often that I find it hard to make friends, because I feel like I'll look awkward striking up a conversation about something. But in-turn, if I just let things happen smoothly and not worry, what results is something entirely different, care-free, and overall awesome. I'm not so much thinking about what the next step should be, but in turn following the flow. I talk to people differently now, I think. I find myself wanting more of the deep conversations still from time-to-time, but now-days I find myself simply wanting to talk and listen to people.
That also shapes up my relationship life. Sadly there hasn't been much change in that department, but that doesn't necessarily say I haven't tried. To be frank, I wasn't sure what I was looking for, although I knew what I didn't want. It took me admitting to myself the truth to finally be able to relax, something I've done recently. I resolve myself to not act in a certain way, behave in a certain way to appease people, but just to relax and be myself, no matter how weird that may look to someone else. I think that in-turn will open the doors a bit more and someone will just plop into my lap. .... I know, I should've already realized this, but saying it, reading it, thinking it, and actually realizing it are totally different ball games. I'd love to have a significant other to call my own, and it's only a matter of time before that actually happen. As much as I want to give up on it sometimes, I know I can't. So I'm not going to. I still believe that person is right around the corner.
So, while I still hate News Years Resolutions, I do have a few resolves I hope to keep in 2012:
1. Don't make promises you can't keep.
- I like to think I don't do this, but in recent thought, it's something I'm going to add to my list.
2. Continue working on the positive path from 2011.
- All the negative aside, focus on the positive from 2011 and keep moving forward with it, adding to it along the way.
3. Work out.... and actually COMMIT.
- Everyone says they're going to be healthier. Everyone says they're gonna work out. But somewhere down the line something changes. I need to keep myself to a healthier, steady lifestyle. My goal is to drop some serious weight before Graduation.
4. Make Spring Semester 2012 the best semester of my collegiate career.
- With graduation being in May, this is my last collegiate semester. Ever. I want it to be one I remember the most when I'm sitting behind the desk and I need a reprieve from the craziness of daily living. With the people I love and the mentality I have, I want it to be a semester I'll never forget.
Of course there's other little things, but this is some of the things I want to keep up for the long haul. I'm pigging out -- sorta -- and being quasi-lazy between now and January 5th. Once I'm back in Georgia, FLAME ON. : )
Until next time....
I started off 2011 with the goal for it to be a ton better than 2010 was for me. I dunno whether to say it felt short of expectations or if it didn't start when I wanted it to, but it surely did go a bit better than even I expected. It took a while for things to start to fall into place and sink in, but I can definitely say that things are a hell of a lot better now than they were at this same point in 2010.
I'm so much more comfortable with things. For the longest time I was so focused on certain things that I never took the time to appreciate the things around me. The people that are around me, the things in life that are around me, and overall, just the general aura of life itself. I had begun to forget about a lot of things, but in the last few months I've started to remember them again. And I've slowly begun to, finally, relax.
For one, the people I've surrounded myself with are absolutely amazing. The conversations I'm having now, I couldn't have had a year ago... hell, I couldn't have had them 6 months ago. It's like around every corner now there's someone who I can turn to and trust, talk to -- and listen to -- about anything, and just generally enjoy. I find myself saying often that I find it hard to make friends, because I feel like I'll look awkward striking up a conversation about something. But in-turn, if I just let things happen smoothly and not worry, what results is something entirely different, care-free, and overall awesome. I'm not so much thinking about what the next step should be, but in turn following the flow. I talk to people differently now, I think. I find myself wanting more of the deep conversations still from time-to-time, but now-days I find myself simply wanting to talk and listen to people.
That also shapes up my relationship life. Sadly there hasn't been much change in that department, but that doesn't necessarily say I haven't tried. To be frank, I wasn't sure what I was looking for, although I knew what I didn't want. It took me admitting to myself the truth to finally be able to relax, something I've done recently. I resolve myself to not act in a certain way, behave in a certain way to appease people, but just to relax and be myself, no matter how weird that may look to someone else. I think that in-turn will open the doors a bit more and someone will just plop into my lap. .... I know, I should've already realized this, but saying it, reading it, thinking it, and actually realizing it are totally different ball games. I'd love to have a significant other to call my own, and it's only a matter of time before that actually happen. As much as I want to give up on it sometimes, I know I can't. So I'm not going to. I still believe that person is right around the corner.
So, while I still hate News Years Resolutions, I do have a few resolves I hope to keep in 2012:
1. Don't make promises you can't keep.
- I like to think I don't do this, but in recent thought, it's something I'm going to add to my list.
2. Continue working on the positive path from 2011.
- All the negative aside, focus on the positive from 2011 and keep moving forward with it, adding to it along the way.
3. Work out.... and actually COMMIT.
- Everyone says they're going to be healthier. Everyone says they're gonna work out. But somewhere down the line something changes. I need to keep myself to a healthier, steady lifestyle. My goal is to drop some serious weight before Graduation.
4. Make Spring Semester 2012 the best semester of my collegiate career.
- With graduation being in May, this is my last collegiate semester. Ever. I want it to be one I remember the most when I'm sitting behind the desk and I need a reprieve from the craziness of daily living. With the people I love and the mentality I have, I want it to be a semester I'll never forget.
Of course there's other little things, but this is some of the things I want to keep up for the long haul. I'm pigging out -- sorta -- and being quasi-lazy between now and January 5th. Once I'm back in Georgia, FLAME ON. : )
Until next time....
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