The Deadliest Catch.
So I've been back in Statesboro now for 4 days, and very quickly I've re-routined myself into my lifestyle. It's very nice to sit down, relax, and simply enjoy the things I do, primarily because they seemingly do not require intervention or permission from any parental figure.
I should probably clarify that I'm thankful for everything my parents have done for me. My mom is a continued inspiration for living my life, and my dad's support has gotten me very far. And with my dad as my sole support system, that is very important. My only thing is that I hate the feeling that I'm caged in my environment. Ultimately it makes me feel like I have no control over what I do.
That out of the way...
I'm liking my life that I live. To me, it's very simple. I do what I need to do, get done what I need to get done, and I work hard for what I desire.
So why do I feel like sometimes it's not enough?
I sell myself short often on what I think I'm capable of doing. Most often, I won't go as far as I should go to obtain the things I want or need to obtain, mostly because I'm afraid of the rejection side. Not sure where it came from, but I have this instantaneous fear of rejection. I think that's what holds me back from a lot of the different things I want to achieve or reach.
It's taken a lot for me to kind of get past that, but in most cases I just press forward. Remember the little voice in the back of your head? I often times will let that little voice win, when in reality it shouldn't come close. But I also use the little voice as a crutch or excuse to not do things when really I should. Like working out, dating, going out, or simply hanging out with people. I just don't take advantage of the opportunities I have like I should.
With so many things in life starting to close, I've realized it's time to ignore the little voice and just... GO. Today, I got new tags (and put my car under new ownership) and I literally just.... LET GO. No longer did I drive in fear of something happening. Now I'm just driving without having to check twice to see if that cop behind me is reading my tags or not. Now, I don't care about live stops or check points. Because it doesn't matter. I can drive.
Also, I'm more ME. Mellow, calm, relaxed. I'm not so uptight. It's like something in me finally just LET GO. I don't live by my phone anymore waiting and hoping someone will text me back so I can know someone actually wants to talk to me. I'm not wanting to be next to my phone every second of the day anymore. For the first REAL time in a long time, I finally just let myself GO LIVE LIFE. And it feels awesome.
Sometimes, the deadliest catch of all is letting the little voice win. Well... I'm trying my hardest to not do that any longer. And not care about what people think.
Just LIVE LIFE. LET GO.
Until next time....
I should probably clarify that I'm thankful for everything my parents have done for me. My mom is a continued inspiration for living my life, and my dad's support has gotten me very far. And with my dad as my sole support system, that is very important. My only thing is that I hate the feeling that I'm caged in my environment. Ultimately it makes me feel like I have no control over what I do.
That out of the way...
I'm liking my life that I live. To me, it's very simple. I do what I need to do, get done what I need to get done, and I work hard for what I desire.
So why do I feel like sometimes it's not enough?
I sell myself short often on what I think I'm capable of doing. Most often, I won't go as far as I should go to obtain the things I want or need to obtain, mostly because I'm afraid of the rejection side. Not sure where it came from, but I have this instantaneous fear of rejection. I think that's what holds me back from a lot of the different things I want to achieve or reach.
It's taken a lot for me to kind of get past that, but in most cases I just press forward. Remember the little voice in the back of your head? I often times will let that little voice win, when in reality it shouldn't come close. But I also use the little voice as a crutch or excuse to not do things when really I should. Like working out, dating, going out, or simply hanging out with people. I just don't take advantage of the opportunities I have like I should.
With so many things in life starting to close, I've realized it's time to ignore the little voice and just... GO. Today, I got new tags (and put my car under new ownership) and I literally just.... LET GO. No longer did I drive in fear of something happening. Now I'm just driving without having to check twice to see if that cop behind me is reading my tags or not. Now, I don't care about live stops or check points. Because it doesn't matter. I can drive.
Also, I'm more ME. Mellow, calm, relaxed. I'm not so uptight. It's like something in me finally just LET GO. I don't live by my phone anymore waiting and hoping someone will text me back so I can know someone actually wants to talk to me. I'm not wanting to be next to my phone every second of the day anymore. For the first REAL time in a long time, I finally just let myself GO LIVE LIFE. And it feels awesome.
Sometimes, the deadliest catch of all is letting the little voice win. Well... I'm trying my hardest to not do that any longer. And not care about what people think.
Just LIVE LIFE. LET GO.
Until next time....
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