#Fighter.
There were a few things last week that, in a way, pushed down my psyche a little bit. It put me in this state of mind where it was pretty hard to think positively. I just kept fighting it though, and at the end of it all, I'm kinda pleased with the outcome of things. Still have a ways to go though.
A lot of things hit me over the course of the week, and I struggled with the idea of talking it out to get it out of my mind, or keeping it in and focusing on how to get out of it. Both to me felt like cop-outs. Like... I was complaining to people about my life if I talked about it, and keeping it all inside without talking about it seemed like the absolute worst thing to do. At the end of it, I picked a hybrid of the two, and it kinda worked. The things I had control over were the things I'd talk out, and the things I know I had zero control over I managed to just get off my mind, albeit difficult.
I opened this blog with the intent of getting out some thought-provoking, inspiring piece. But as I opened Blogger to type this out, I kinda realized that my intent disappeared. Instead, I had this blank canvas of what I was wanting to say, and was just left in a place of reflection. At the end of that, I realized that I just have to continue to fight. When it's hard to be positive, I have to look that extra inch, and fight. Fight like the Fighter I truly am.
I'll continue to fight, continue to battle through it. Depression is tough, and it's not meant to be overtaken easily. I'm not choosing to go this alone anymore, and instead trying to bring in that support.... people who are helping me to see things and realize things on a different level. It's helped immensely.
A lot of things hit me over the course of the week, and I struggled with the idea of talking it out to get it out of my mind, or keeping it in and focusing on how to get out of it. Both to me felt like cop-outs. Like... I was complaining to people about my life if I talked about it, and keeping it all inside without talking about it seemed like the absolute worst thing to do. At the end of it, I picked a hybrid of the two, and it kinda worked. The things I had control over were the things I'd talk out, and the things I know I had zero control over I managed to just get off my mind, albeit difficult.
I opened this blog with the intent of getting out some thought-provoking, inspiring piece. But as I opened Blogger to type this out, I kinda realized that my intent disappeared. Instead, I had this blank canvas of what I was wanting to say, and was just left in a place of reflection. At the end of that, I realized that I just have to continue to fight. When it's hard to be positive, I have to look that extra inch, and fight. Fight like the Fighter I truly am.
I'll continue to fight, continue to battle through it. Depression is tough, and it's not meant to be overtaken easily. I'm not choosing to go this alone anymore, and instead trying to bring in that support.... people who are helping me to see things and realize things on a different level. It's helped immensely.
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