This Christmas is a Bit Different.
The weirdest thing happened this morning.... at least, it was weird to me. I woke up per usual, and as I got out of bed, everything felt normal, as it should. Internet was acting weird so the YouTube videos I normally watch weren't playing, so I fiddled with the iPad and the Chromecast until I figured out it was the internet.
I checked my phone and caught glimpse of the messages on it. 3 unread, all from friends. As I saw them, something clicked in my mind.
Today is Christmas Day.
I had planned to get a small Christmas tree for my room, just to bring a little bit of the spirit into my room specifically. I was going to do a little bit of decorating, just to spruce things up a little bit. And then I found out my dad was joining my stepmother in Hawaii with the rest of the step-family, so I effectively was on my own for the first time for Christmas. I can't say I'm surprised, but it was still a weird feeling. I've always been with my family for the holidays, especially Christmas. And then I thought about my Grandma, who is now in a nursing home because of her dementia.... and then my Aunt Sheryl who passed away earlier in the year.... and it just made me think about everything that happened.
This Christmas is a bit different.
I always envisioned the point where things would become a bit different. As I get older (and one day have my own family), I figured that point would be where things would shift in the paradigm. I guess I just didn't expect it to come so soon.
It's a weird time for me. We're winding down on 2015. In 2 days I'll be 27 years old, 3 years away from 30 years alive. It's SUCH a weird feeling and my mind is a mixture of emotion and thoughts.
This is the first Christmas where I'm truly on my own to do whatever. And now that it's here I have not a single clue what to do about it.
So... I'm gonna go visit my Grandma at her nursing home for a couple of hours. My sister is making chili at home so I'll stop over there. Stores are closed so I'm definitely not going to do any shopping, and tomorrow I go back to work and the start of probably the busiest week I'll have the pleasure of being a part of. I have Sunday off for my birthday, so I'll have breakfast with a friend of mine and then the rest of the afternoon is fully open.
But first, we'll focus on today. This Christmas is a bit different, but I'm okay with it, at least for now. I was sad about it at first, but after a bit of reflection, I can't say there's much to complain about. I have my health, I have the ability to do and go where I want to, and there's no worries about anything at the moment.
Although now I'm craving some Chinese food....
Merry Christmas, Internet.
I checked my phone and caught glimpse of the messages on it. 3 unread, all from friends. As I saw them, something clicked in my mind.
Today is Christmas Day.
I had planned to get a small Christmas tree for my room, just to bring a little bit of the spirit into my room specifically. I was going to do a little bit of decorating, just to spruce things up a little bit. And then I found out my dad was joining my stepmother in Hawaii with the rest of the step-family, so I effectively was on my own for the first time for Christmas. I can't say I'm surprised, but it was still a weird feeling. I've always been with my family for the holidays, especially Christmas. And then I thought about my Grandma, who is now in a nursing home because of her dementia.... and then my Aunt Sheryl who passed away earlier in the year.... and it just made me think about everything that happened.
This Christmas is a bit different.
I always envisioned the point where things would become a bit different. As I get older (and one day have my own family), I figured that point would be where things would shift in the paradigm. I guess I just didn't expect it to come so soon.
It's a weird time for me. We're winding down on 2015. In 2 days I'll be 27 years old, 3 years away from 30 years alive. It's SUCH a weird feeling and my mind is a mixture of emotion and thoughts.
This is the first Christmas where I'm truly on my own to do whatever. And now that it's here I have not a single clue what to do about it.
So... I'm gonna go visit my Grandma at her nursing home for a couple of hours. My sister is making chili at home so I'll stop over there. Stores are closed so I'm definitely not going to do any shopping, and tomorrow I go back to work and the start of probably the busiest week I'll have the pleasure of being a part of. I have Sunday off for my birthday, so I'll have breakfast with a friend of mine and then the rest of the afternoon is fully open.
But first, we'll focus on today. This Christmas is a bit different, but I'm okay with it, at least for now. I was sad about it at first, but after a bit of reflection, I can't say there's much to complain about. I have my health, I have the ability to do and go where I want to, and there's no worries about anything at the moment.
Although now I'm craving some Chinese food....
Merry Christmas, Internet.
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