A Series of Non-Strung Thoughts.
A couple of nights ago I sat down at my computer ready to crank out something different, something new. My previous blog post chronicling my depression was sticking out in my mind, and I just felt compelled to write something. I wanted to "clear my head" and give myself room to think.
Oddly enough, nothing came out that night. So I closed up Blogger and went about my day.
Even now, I can randomly just switch off my brain and go stare at YouTube videos for a good couple of hours.... which, ironically, I just did.
I can already tell this blog is going to make absolutely zero sense.
It's just a weird time for me right now. My mind is absolutely everywhere at the moment. There are days where I feel perfectly functional, perfectly fine. Other days, I feel like I'm annoying everyone around me. Most days I just feel some kind of feeling there isn't a word for yet.
I have recently considered getting a Christmas tree in my room. Just a small one, but something nonetheless to put the Christmas spirit in my life. It's been a long time since I've truly felt "the spirit of Christmas" through me. I guess a lot of it comes from the fact that I never spend Christmas with friends, just family. It's kinda a weird feeling, considering you should want to spend Christmas with your family. I think it comes at no surprise though.... I am kinda weird.
There's someone at work I've been wanting to talk to for a little bit now, but I feel like I'm either too shy to make a move or I don't have the time I want to attempt to make that move. It's not all that consumes my mind, but it's more or less figuring out what to do and how to do it without coming off as incredibly stupid or incredibly shy. Ever get that feeling that you just wanna talk to someone but dunno how to start the conversation? Yeah that's where I am right now. It doesn't help that we're in different departments. But they're a cool person. Hopefully that opportunity presents itself. At least a phone number... that'll be a definite start.
Okay I think I've rambled enough for a day off. I'm about to embark on 3 hard working days before Thanksgiving, then prepare for Black Friday. As long as I survive that's all I ask for.
I looked back on this blog and realized just how all over the place it is. That's exactly how my life and mind have been lately. Maybe the more I document this stuff out, the more things will make sense. Worth a shot, right? Let's go with it.
Later, folks.
Oddly enough, nothing came out that night. So I closed up Blogger and went about my day.
Even now, I can randomly just switch off my brain and go stare at YouTube videos for a good couple of hours.... which, ironically, I just did.
I can already tell this blog is going to make absolutely zero sense.
It's just a weird time for me right now. My mind is absolutely everywhere at the moment. There are days where I feel perfectly functional, perfectly fine. Other days, I feel like I'm annoying everyone around me. Most days I just feel some kind of feeling there isn't a word for yet.
I have recently considered getting a Christmas tree in my room. Just a small one, but something nonetheless to put the Christmas spirit in my life. It's been a long time since I've truly felt "the spirit of Christmas" through me. I guess a lot of it comes from the fact that I never spend Christmas with friends, just family. It's kinda a weird feeling, considering you should want to spend Christmas with your family. I think it comes at no surprise though.... I am kinda weird.
There's someone at work I've been wanting to talk to for a little bit now, but I feel like I'm either too shy to make a move or I don't have the time I want to attempt to make that move. It's not all that consumes my mind, but it's more or less figuring out what to do and how to do it without coming off as incredibly stupid or incredibly shy. Ever get that feeling that you just wanna talk to someone but dunno how to start the conversation? Yeah that's where I am right now. It doesn't help that we're in different departments. But they're a cool person. Hopefully that opportunity presents itself. At least a phone number... that'll be a definite start.
Okay I think I've rambled enough for a day off. I'm about to embark on 3 hard working days before Thanksgiving, then prepare for Black Friday. As long as I survive that's all I ask for.
I looked back on this blog and realized just how all over the place it is. That's exactly how my life and mind have been lately. Maybe the more I document this stuff out, the more things will make sense. Worth a shot, right? Let's go with it.
Later, folks.
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