Random Babble at 2:23am.

The problem I have is that I'm kinda stuck in this thing right now. I don't feel like I have much of a purpose or much of a life to live. All I do is go to work, come home, sleep, and on my days off go see my grandma. There's no time to myself, no time to do anything I want to do, hang out with people.... none of that.

It's hard to really not feel like I'm stuck in a trap. For instance, today I got talked to about not keeping up with my responsibilities around the house. In that same conversation, there was an excuse for it being okay that I hadn't done the things I was being talked to about not doing. The main thing is that apparently I'm too focused on work, and that "for a real man the work doesn't stop when the work day is done." All fair and true, but the main thing is that I also work from 1pm to 10pm majority of the time, so by the time I get home it's approaching 11pm, almost Midnight in some instances.

I'm also too tired to write this right now so I'm not entirely sure why I started it.


I guess the main point is that I'm working the best I can with what I have, but sometimes I feel like even my 150% isn't good enough. But, I'm figuring out what to do.